Today as I was driving to drop off my resume an overwhelming burst of happiness surged through me. I was driving fast, Lady Gaga full blast and the sun was out. I dont know what happened to me yesterday but I woke up feeling renewed. It was like the sadness inside of me died. I was so proud to not shed a single tear, and smile and LAUGH. Its been so long since I have felt hopeful but today I felt it. I’ve been doubting my self worth so much and I forgot how to be my own friend. Of course moving across the country from all my friends and having no family with me doesnt help but this is a new beginning. I’ve got so much to look forward to. I wont let anyone or anything make me feel so inferior again. I am great and I dont need anyone elses validation. I’m planning on going to Florida next weekend with my Joey. Alix will be visiting North Carolina soon and we’ll put our feet in the Atlantic Ocean for the first time. I cant wait.