I am both happy and sad, & I am still trying to figure out how that could be.
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| — | Stephen Chbosky - The Perks of Being a Wallflower (via quote-book) |
Plans for today are all about getting outside. I took these pictures in San Diego last July (i think?) and I want to find somewhere here to just sit and BE. I think I spent 2 hours just sitting on top of Mt. Soledad before I went down to La Jolla cove. The dog park is a must today too.
I forgot to add that while being interviewed last night by the local news I said “HAPPY ST VALENTINES DAY!” yep. I’m a fun drunk. My other favorite part of the night was walking around the streets of downtown and bumping into a guy dressed as a leprechaun, Joey and I started laughing and he looked back at us smiled and shouted “its laundry day!” We really should’ve gotten that guys number.
Sorry I cannot hear you I’m kinda busy
Today as I was driving to drop off my resume an overwhelming burst of happiness surged through me. I was driving fast, Lady Gaga full blast and the sun was out. I dont know what happened to me yesterday but I woke up feeling renewed. It was like the sadness inside of me died. I was so proud to not shed a single tear, and smile and LAUGH. Its been so long since I have felt hopeful but today I felt it. I’ve been doubting my self worth so much and I forgot how to be my own friend. Of course moving across the country from all my friends and having no family with me doesnt help but this is a new beginning. I’ve got so much to look forward to. I wont let anyone or anything make me feel so inferior again. I am great and I dont need anyone elses validation. I’m planning on going to Florida next weekend with my Joey. Alix will be visiting North Carolina soon and we’ll put our feet in the Atlantic Ocean for the first time. I cant wait.
